DEPARTURE?

Dear friends and family!!!

 

The time in Honduras is running out, and Tijuana awaits. I continue to serve here in Comayagua everyday and to receive all the grace and purification the Lord wants to grant me, but in many ways I have already began to depart. I cannot even imagine what it will be like to enter the MC Fathers and STAY! But I have so much peace in my heart and thus, do not worry about not knowing such things. I just feel like I want to get started with this exciting new phase of life and of responding to the LOUD calling of the Lord…as my spiritual director said, "you have waited long enough".   At the same time I realize I am not ready and must be completely dependant on the Heavenly Grace and Mercy!

 

It is funny to think how much and for how long I fought myself and I wrestled with God, knowing deep inside that this was my calling, to serve Jesus Christ in such an intimate way; sharing in the mystery of His mystical Body, Eucharist, The Altar, The Sacrifice, Banquet, the Mercy… anointed in His Spirit, in His priesthood! Hold on…could this be happening? How did I get here? What supernatural events brought me to this beautiful place which is my last stepping stone, the ground for being propelled unto the new ground of formation and sanctification? GLORY TO GOD.

The truth is that many doubt the Missionaries of Charity are the "right match" for me, but I still have peace, AND I CAN ONLY TRUST. I trust deeply that it has been the Lord leading me step by step, despite of my doubt, my sin, my failed attempts and my languid following of His footsteps.

 

"If God is with us, who can be against us?"

 

I desire to be a Missionary, a Priest, and an instrument of perfect charity amongst the smallest of our brethren. To give up so much for the sake of the Kingdom, cannot be from me…and so who will take credit?   I can only boast in the Lord Jesus! Glory to God!

And I do not mean to sound proud and up in the clouds…although I may be prideful and most times too idealist.   This change in my life is not an unbearable cross which I suffer in picking up and makes me holy or something… no, no, on the contrary it is a joy and a blessing, and although it does tempt me to be afraid, God is providing the Grace every moment and it is Him doing all the work. I am learning so much about staying out of His way! Pray that I may remain but a simple and useless servant to Him who is All in All, and Who knows not impossible!

 

Dates of departure coming up! Pray for vocations to the mission and for the courage to respond…after all, we are ALL called to the mission of being the wounded, yet loving hands and feet of our Lord Jesus Christ to a world in such desperate need of redemption!

John Paul II Magno, pray for us!